Lie back and think of England

I’m going to the UK very soon for holiday, while thinking about quitting my job, this is the only happy thing I can think about when I’m at work in the past few weeks.

Some of you may not know the meaning of this phrase ‘lie back and think of England’, please see the link first: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lie_back_and_think_of_England

Then it’s exactly how I feel when I’m at work now, duty, duty, duty, and the pay cheque are what keep me riding. I’m a tolerated person, who is enthusiastic and independent employee, and a team player, I found reasons to keep myself moving, achieving to my goal easily, yet, this bloody energy draining job is dragging me out of my mind, there are tons of reasons behind supporting this thought.

Well, not to list all of them here, instead, I could give you a little story background of working here, in an IT company which I’m not so fond with: This job supposed to be the shelter for me until my reunion with my man, who was working in the UK, we promised to be together, and he promised me to quit his job after one year service in his company, and we would build a home together…blabla…I believe you could imagine what we had planned, and the promises he gave….I’m not going to be a whining woman here, but as you can see, and imagine that things changed painfully quietly, and cruelty in a pace like a flash of lightening.

Well, skip the details, the motivation of working here has became transparent, right, I can’t say it’s disappeared, (it’s just to bad to be a person who always has her finger crossed for everything!) But obviously, since someone has changed the plan, hence I lost the patient of working here, that’s the biggest reason.

Without love, and expectation, I can’t only lei back and think of England. (Referring to the literal, and semantic meanings;))